i'm a little apprehensive sometimes when things start going well, a little fearful that all these might be too good to be true... it's been a role that i've been toying with for the longest time and when i arrived at it somehow it feels a little surreal. perhaps it is true that if one tries hard enough one would really eventually succeed. hopefully this will be a clean slate for me, a better place for me. i really must learn to speak less and just mind my own business. 

yesterday was one of those everything-seemed-right kinda day. 

sorted problems out early in the morn.. when i walked out of that office it felt like my eyes cleared and a great load disappeared off my shoulders.

got my ring fixed and when they didn't charge me for it.. i felt this day was just getting better and better...

received good news in the early evening.. which made me wanna bounce off the walls... it felt too good to be true..

the hubs had good news too on his return.. good vibes on the 13th :)

the past few weeks, i saw no light at the end of the tunnel.. but thank you for putting up with my seesaw-ing moods.. your support and positivity buoyed up my pessimism..  

Tired...
Of facing rude people who throw tantrums at me
Of saying sorry for things I have not done
Of standing in high heels all day
Of not having my own workspace
Of having zero privacy
Of always having my lunch interrupted
Of working on weekends and public holidays
Of being unappreciated
Of facing hypocrites and two headed snakes
Of chasing impossible targets
Of this job I have no interest in
of this job which I absolutely hate

slightly more than a year has gone by since our wedding, and i have many happy memories from the 3 days of celebration. it all passed by so quickly.. what stood out was the love and friendship shown to us.. i wished i had savored the moments more..

i love my hubs... for taking the time and effort to plan the string of surprises and more importantly.. for loving me.. flaws and all..

happy anniversary darling..

don't judge me when you don't know me.

who are we to judge anyone.

for dinner a few nights ago, a very healthy stir-fry of broccoli and shitake mushrooms, and the husband bought rice and kung pao chicken from the cafeteria downstairs cos we have no rice cooker yet and no meat in the fridge! i'm looking forward to doing more cooking once we have settled down and actually start buying fresh ingredients and seasonings and stuff. i can't wait to get hold of an oven too.

i am enjoying this nest building time, buying little things for our home, and at the same time balancing the wants and the needs, always this tussle between form or function. but slowly and surely we are moving things along bit by bit, albeit always with a few speedbumps along the way. i am looking forward to having friends over, leisurely swims, and spending time at the park across the road.

the weekend began with a leisurely friday teatime at the auyongs. i am greeted as usual by a very happy latte and totally charmed by their lovely girl missy. i can see why full time parenting is so fulfilling and rewarding. saturday lunch was just as leisurely spent, it was heartland shopping at its best. i found my paper bags thanks to grace! we had fruits and coffee later back at her place. i love these meetups at friends' homes, it's relaxed, and very comfortable.

27 days till the wedding day and i really have to get down to making sure things are on track. so much to do!